Does anyone keep track of all the times your life has gone the opposite direction that you wanted it to? I like to. Maybe I don’t like to keep track but I do anyway. For some reason we have a tendency to focus on the negative rather than the positive. Even knowing that about ourselves there are those of us that still an’t change the way our minds are programmed.
I do not know why I can’t change the way my mind seems to go straight to the bad moments. The worst is that they seem to go straight to the bad moments during other particularly bad moments. Obviously this is something I would like to change about myself.
What makes this even worse are the people who judge the rest of us “Negative Nancy’s”. The worst is when someone without anxiety expects you to just turn off your anxiety. I am not sure about the rest of the world but my anxiety makes me grouchy a lot. I am constantly characterized as the “bitch” or the negative one in my group. Most of the time when I am saying negative things or being a downer it’s because I’m currently dealing with some form of anxiety caused by the current situation or some larger situation happening in my life.
I can’t just turn this off or “just relax”. This is a huge pet peeve of mine when someone tells me to “relax”. I would like to see them relax with their mind going 300 mph thinking about something that scares the crap out of them. Seriously.
And don’t even get me started on the people who are constantly asking me “what’s wrong?” First off if something was indeed wrong I would share it with you if I wanted to, you asking doesn’t mean I am obligated to tell you. Second I have bitchy resting face so most of the time nothing is wrong (also never trust anyone who smiles all the time) and again if something was wrong I would tell you if I felt it was any of your business. And finally when I tell you what is wrong don’t look at me like I’m complaining or being negative. You asked and I told you, if you didn’t want to be supportive or try to help then don’t ask in the first place.
So that is my rant for this evening. See you tomorrow.
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