The only days I see in color are the days I wake up beside you, I am not sure you knew that.
I worry sometimes that you will never understand how deeply I love you. This fear has been created and maintained by my own selfish need to keep you just far enough away so that it appears you could never hurt me. But you hurt me.
When you get cut I bleed, you probably didn’t know that either. If I could take all the pain you have ever felt, or will ever feel and put that inside me I would. Even though some of that pain is caused by me.
Did you know that you are the only source of happiness I need to survive? We could be trapped in a room with no light and just being able to hear your voice or touch your hand would be enough to sustain me.
If we had only one more second together this is what I would need you to know. This is how I feel, have always felt and will always feel.
In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Audience of One.”
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You express yourself very well. There are some deep feelings there, and a certain poetic lilt to your words. Enjoyed your prompt response very much.
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Thank you! I chose to write to someone I see and speak to everyday and whom I have had the pleasure to know for almost 10 years. To find deeper things I have never been able to say out loud.
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That’s amazing the way you describe that. I keep my loved ones further away than that out of fear/ maybe terror. Thank you!
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Its a feeling I think a lot of people don’t like to admit to. No matter how much we love someone and let them in they truly will never know all of what is inside. And I think that is out of fear or rejection, loss and not wanting to be hurt. It’s a natural thing for our minds and bodies to try and protect ourselves.
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I really respect this post it is so true…..nobody wants to read someone who always seems happy…thats why i have a journaling section on my blog, to show everyone that i am a person with problems and struggles….you won’t be judged, personally I find it a bold and brave move. Blogging is meant to express yourself, it’s a way to show how you feel
If you want to see my journaling section just head over to my blog, it could give you some inspiration
https://shamelesslyaddictedtocaffeine.wordpress.com/my-journals/
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Thank you! I will defiantly check out your blog.
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“The only days I see color are the days I wake up beside you.” This is perfect writing. I will carry this line with me forever when I try to describe the way love changes everything. Great post.
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Thank you! It’s so hard sometimes to express how you feel about someone. Sometimes I feel like the words I need haven’t been created yet.
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That moment when someone’s writing is so beautifully honest and raw that it hurts as much as it soothes. That’s what you’ve allowed me to experience with this post. Thanks for sharing. You write brilliantly. I’m looking forward to my next read from you (Ishmael).
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Thanks so much! This is an important post because it allowed me to express how I felt to someone really important to me. I ended up letting them read it and it wasn’t nearly as scary as I thought it would be.
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